Resentment

   Resentment. Such an ugly word. Holding resentments against someone is like drinking poison and hoping that the other person dies. It is a spiritual sickness that doesn't affect others at all, it will only eat at you and keep you sick.


   We all have had people in our lives who have been vendictive and vengeful, people that have nothing better to do with their time than to try to hurt you or "get even" with you. Yes, it's a sad phenomena. We have all had ex boyfriends, ex bosses, coworkers, friends and others who seem to  hold the title "king or queen of resentment". I just recently had to deal with an ex boyfriend who was as venemous and hateful as ever. I had broke up with him, had his phone which I was using returned to him along with a note explaining that I need to change people, places, and things and I wish the best for him in his life and will always love him. I didn't find it prudent to speak to him face to face, as he is a "tad bit" emotionally unstable and very unpredictable. Also, I had spoke to him on the phone about the fact that I really do not need a relationship in my life right now as I am sick as well and need to work on myself. I certainly do not need an unhealthy relationship to add to my own problems and struggles.


   Well the underlying emotion that he felt was hurt, which I fully understand. We can't please everybody all the time in this life and sometimes I need to take care of myself first. But he masked his emotional pain with anger and began a diabolic mission to try to ruin me. He posted nasty things on my facebook page. He hacked into my facebook account as me and posted things that were just thoughtless and uncharacteristic of me. He began sending me cruel texts, insulting my intelligence, my son, my hepatitis-c, my family...the list goes on. Now what kind of person stoops to that level and how am I to respond to such things?


   Well, all that I can do is pray for him, for he is spiritually sick. Simply put. Some people feed off of their own anger and negativity. To wallow in such things is absolutely no way to live. I have prayed for him often, praying that he will someday find serenity and inner peace. It is always best to take the high road in any situation involving resentment. Resentment is such a waste of time and energy.


   We all have to deal with the stresses of negative people in our lives, but it is how we choose to deal with it that really matters. We don't have to let their negative energy engulf and destroy us. We can choose to live a peaceful existence--- in mind, body, and spirit. What's true in our minds and hearts is true, we create our own destiny-- a destiny free of resentments. As far as we know, we only have this one lifetime, and life is too short to wallow in misery, spite, self-pity, and darkness.